"Everything in Moderation!" or "Moderation is best", I have never heard these two phrases so much in my life as this weekend and well month in general to be honest. Now I know its my own fault as I asked everyones opinion on whether or not I should drink this weekend and these two answers came back mostly!
But serious have you ever actually thought about it. They are kinda of silly things to say, a bit like "It will be in the last place you look!" Really cause once I have found what I am looking for will I really keep looking for?? Anyway moderation! I mean today when I said to a friend I had quit drinking (no longer am I putting a time period of this) she said " Well moderation is best!" Well actually its not!!! Lets take drinking off the table here... lets replace it with say.... Fish and Chips! If I ate fish and chips 7 days a weeks and someone said I find moderation is best and I cut it down to 4 days a week, that would be moderation and yes it would be better, but what if I stopped eating the heavy oil covered fish and chips with creamy mushy peas and curry sauce completely - would that not be better for my health more than the 4 times a week, or even 4 times a year???
Anyway this was just a quick picture question rant entry to let you all know I am alive after my weekend in London and at the rugby!! I will spend some time tomorrow doing a fuller entry with pics telling you all about it!!
Hope you all had a great weekend! Let me know!!
x x x x
Sunday, 7 August 2011
Thursday, 4 August 2011
I'm back!!!
Whoop Whoop!!! Hi Everybody!!!
Sorry for the silence I have had a small technically difficulty recently with both the "wonderful" iPhone and my laptop! Saying that my laptop has been playing up for a couple of years so when it finally gave up its fight I kinda of felt relieved! I tried to take over Dad's bit he is an only child and doesn't know how to share!
Anyway, new laptop "Percy" arrived today!!! Itunes installed, so now have most of my music but not all, photos have been transfered, so expect more personal ones coming up, and skype uploaded! What else do I need??
So what has ClaireBear been up to? Good question!! Well other than the normal poor performance at the gym, the nights trying to decide what I want to be when I grow up and of course trying to work out my phone, I have had a few things happen!
When I started not drinking (does that make sense?) this was going to be the end and the blow out weekend and then it would start again until Vikki's 30th! So lets see what happens! I really do hope none of you will judge or be disappointed in me, I am trying so hard at eating clean and training, and looking after my body, I even used a face mask tonight!!!
Anyway, now that you guys will have nightmares for the rest of the week, I will bid you good night!! x x x
Sorry for the silence I have had a small technically difficulty recently with both the "wonderful" iPhone and my laptop! Saying that my laptop has been playing up for a couple of years so when it finally gave up its fight I kinda of felt relieved! I tried to take over Dad's bit he is an only child and doesn't know how to share!
Anyway, new laptop "Percy" arrived today!!! Itunes installed, so now have most of my music but not all, photos have been transfered, so expect more personal ones coming up, and skype uploaded! What else do I need??
So what has ClaireBear been up to? Good question!! Well other than the normal poor performance at the gym, the nights trying to decide what I want to be when I grow up and of course trying to work out my phone, I have had a few things happen!
- I have eventually moved into my flat, well by flat I mean the top floor of the house and by moved in I mean into the kitchen! Mum loves me she claimed but not my suppliments or seeing my stripped, limited fruit diet! I think she is worried I will crack and eat her chocolate so in a way she is being supportive. But it was a move that needed to be done and I am enjoying it. Lonely which is strange as my folks are only 10 stairs away!
- I went to Yoga, you might not know but I have a love hate realtionship with yoga, or at least my Monday night teacher! But I went, and I am going tomorrow, all be it with a different teacher, who also happens to be my gardener, he knows I make his tea so he will be nice to me!!!
- I went to see Harry Potter with Badge as a reward for well I think "doing" my food plan, well writing it up is technically "doing" it in my eyes! Anyway I got scared by the snake ( it was in 3D) and I cried!!
- I had the plumbers in AGAIN!! (New hot water system required) The Stonemasons to fix the steps; The Carpenters to fix the doors, (ok so one was lush until he told me he had to take a couple of the doors away!!) By the way one of the doors he is taken is in the photo behind my mum and Molly!!
- I learnt the importance of taking makeup off and putting moisturiser on!! Yes it has taken me 28 years to learn this interesting fact, well I knew about it but to be honest too lazy!
- Oh and I ranted big time on twitter about a couple of things which I won't go into again as some people get annoyed!!
When I started not drinking (does that make sense?) this was going to be the end and the blow out weekend and then it would start again until Vikki's 30th! So lets see what happens! I really do hope none of you will judge or be disappointed in me, I am trying so hard at eating clean and training, and looking after my body, I even used a face mask tonight!!!
Anyway, now that you guys will have nightmares for the rest of the week, I will bid you good night!! x x x
x x x Stay Safe!! x x x
Sunday, 31 July 2011
What is "this"?
Morning all!! How are we this fine, sunny day?
I am good thanks! I am sat here having my homemade apple and pear squash icelolly before finishing the 3rd and final weekend off the drink before my blow out weekend. Or is it? I realised the other day that actually I don't miss it that much! Actually I'm not sure I miss it at all! I definitely don't miss the hangovers for the feeling rubbish and sluggish for days afterwards.
I think I like feeling like "this" too much, I have worked hard for "this" so why throw it away on a drunken weekend? But what is "this"??? Is it the way I feel emotionally (we all know the booze makes me sad) or it is phyiscally (the way I am starting to look and everything)? I don't know.
But then there is the other side of the coin! Can I go out and have fun and not drink? Can I dance like a nutter and not care? Can I still go to the pub and sit there talking rubbish for hours with my friends? Does the 90:10 theory work? Can you be good 90% time and then having blow outs? More importantly can I??
Soooo many questions and I don't know the answer! I know what my mum says "Everything in moderation" But seriously my mum should know me better than to think i do anything in moderation!!Has anyone out there done the 90:10 thing? has anyone got any advice?
Sorry this is so short and i have been quiet for a few days but the cricket has been great, and the sun out so my bad!!
Love you all! x x x
I am good thanks! I am sat here having my homemade apple and pear squash icelolly before finishing the 3rd and final weekend off the drink before my blow out weekend. Or is it? I realised the other day that actually I don't miss it that much! Actually I'm not sure I miss it at all! I definitely don't miss the hangovers for the feeling rubbish and sluggish for days afterwards.
I think I like feeling like "this" too much, I have worked hard for "this" so why throw it away on a drunken weekend? But what is "this"??? Is it the way I feel emotionally (we all know the booze makes me sad) or it is phyiscally (the way I am starting to look and everything)? I don't know.
But then there is the other side of the coin! Can I go out and have fun and not drink? Can I dance like a nutter and not care? Can I still go to the pub and sit there talking rubbish for hours with my friends? Does the 90:10 theory work? Can you be good 90% time and then having blow outs? More importantly can I??
Soooo many questions and I don't know the answer! I know what my mum says "Everything in moderation" But seriously my mum should know me better than to think i do anything in moderation!!Has anyone out there done the 90:10 thing? has anyone got any advice?
Sorry this is so short and i have been quiet for a few days but the cricket has been great, and the sun out so my bad!!
Love you all! x x x
Wednesday, 27 July 2011
Getting to know you!
Right, so today I will not rant! I was going to do a WIAW following Becca's lead but as today i have mostly eaten fruit it wouldn't be that interesting so instead I thought today we would do a get to know you session! So I contacted a few friends, and opened it up to twitter and asked them to come up with questions as well as me giving you basic facts about myself!
Name: Claire E. Campbell ( I hate my middle name, my sister was allowed to chose it!)
Nicknames: ClaireBear, Campbell, Boobies (one person gets away with this) or Bella (Dad always used to call me Bella but obviously i have out grown it)
Date of Birth: 21st March 1983 - Yes, this makes me an Aries and I am a typical Aries and proved of it!!
Bit about me: I live at home with my mum, dad and two labs! One chocolate and one yellow, you know when they decided dogs are like their owners well my dogs are very much like me and my sister. Oh yes, I have one sister who is older, married with two stunning boys! Anyway getting back to the dogs, Molly the chocolate one is like my sister, independent, goes with the flow, and will get places in her own time! Tess, the yellow one, well she is me! She is a complete stress head, who doesn't know what she wants, can't sit still, constantly thinks about food and basically is a neurotic mess!
Favourite sport: All sports especially Rugby!
Favourite Food: NUTS!!!! Fruit, Curry, Porridge, anything covered in PeriPeri Sauce!
Favourite Drink: White Wine, Cider, Robinsons Summer Fruit and Barley Squash
Worst Food: Meat on the bone! Sorry it freaks me out!
Worst Drink: Green Tea (I drink it but only cause its meant to be good for me!) Tequilla (got drunk on it when I was 16, I can't even smell the stuff now!)
My Hero: My Parents!
FRIENDS QUESTIONS!
When, Where and Why did you decide to start blogging? Basically one morning I woke up with too many thoughts and ideas in my head, and instead of going even more crazy than I am I decided to start a blog to try and talk them through! Then it turned into a diary about my attempts to get fit, then I fell off the fitness wagon for a couple of months so I stopped blogging. Now, well now, my head is slightly more back in the game, if life gives you lemons make lemonade! Or at least attempt to, fail, then try again!!
What kind of Auntie are you?
What is your greatest fear? I got asked this question the other day, I always thought my greatest fear was falling but I think that's a bit of a cop out, if I am honest I guess I have two fears, one letting down the people I love and the other is, falling in love again! What is it they say! Once bitten twice shy!!
What would be your perfect weekend? Perfect weekend is easy, surrounded by my family and friends, throw in a game or two of rugby and the sun!!
If you won the lottery what would be the first thing you would buy? I have no idea, maybe a holiday - oh who am I kidding - I would drink, then buy a Vantage!! Am I allowed to buy people? I would buy myself a rugby team!!! Danny Carter, Johnny, and Butch James would be my first purchases.
Dog or Cat person? DOG!!!! I don't trust cats, they are too clever for me!
So thats me!! Well a bit about me!!
If you have any questions then I will try and answer them!! Get in touch!
Name: Claire E. Campbell ( I hate my middle name, my sister was allowed to chose it!)
Nicknames: ClaireBear, Campbell, Boobies (one person gets away with this) or Bella (Dad always used to call me Bella but obviously i have out grown it)
Date of Birth: 21st March 1983 - Yes, this makes me an Aries and I am a typical Aries and proved of it!!
Bit about me: I live at home with my mum, dad and two labs! One chocolate and one yellow, you know when they decided dogs are like their owners well my dogs are very much like me and my sister. Oh yes, I have one sister who is older, married with two stunning boys! Anyway getting back to the dogs, Molly the chocolate one is like my sister, independent, goes with the flow, and will get places in her own time! Tess, the yellow one, well she is me! She is a complete stress head, who doesn't know what she wants, can't sit still, constantly thinks about food and basically is a neurotic mess!
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| Molly and Tess |
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| Shona, with Puds (George) and Gollum (Baby Harry) |
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| My Sister and Me |
Favourite sport: All sports especially Rugby!
Favourite Food: NUTS!!!! Fruit, Curry, Porridge, anything covered in PeriPeri Sauce!
Favourite Drink: White Wine, Cider, Robinsons Summer Fruit and Barley Squash
Worst Food: Meat on the bone! Sorry it freaks me out!
Worst Drink: Green Tea (I drink it but only cause its meant to be good for me!) Tequilla (got drunk on it when I was 16, I can't even smell the stuff now!)
My Hero: My Parents!
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| My Parents with Harry |
FRIENDS QUESTIONS!
When, Where and Why did you decide to start blogging? Basically one morning I woke up with too many thoughts and ideas in my head, and instead of going even more crazy than I am I decided to start a blog to try and talk them through! Then it turned into a diary about my attempts to get fit, then I fell off the fitness wagon for a couple of months so I stopped blogging. Now, well now, my head is slightly more back in the game, if life gives you lemons make lemonade! Or at least attempt to, fail, then try again!!
What kind of Auntie are you?
What is your greatest fear? I got asked this question the other day, I always thought my greatest fear was falling but I think that's a bit of a cop out, if I am honest I guess I have two fears, one letting down the people I love and the other is, falling in love again! What is it they say! Once bitten twice shy!!
What would be your perfect weekend? Perfect weekend is easy, surrounded by my family and friends, throw in a game or two of rugby and the sun!!
If you won the lottery what would be the first thing you would buy? I have no idea, maybe a holiday - oh who am I kidding - I would drink, then buy a Vantage!! Am I allowed to buy people? I would buy myself a rugby team!!! Danny Carter, Johnny, and Butch James would be my first purchases.
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| Danny Carter - if only he would wear the English Rose! |
So thats me!! Well a bit about me!!
If you have any questions then I will try and answer them!! Get in touch!
x x x Have a great rest of the day! x x x
Tuesday, 26 July 2011
How to "upset" a ClaireBear in one easy move!
Please feel free to replace upset with a swear word if you would like! Today's entry was up until 3:30pm a brilliant, happy buzzing one, now it is annoyed and upset and actually I am fuming, so I can going to do what I wouldn't normally do! Name and Shame time!!
I was absolutely buzzing this morning as I woke up early I did a 2mile run (not much I know but the first time in ages I have done a road run) and then 350m swim (yes I got in the pool and I swam). Then off to the gym I went, I texted Perv to ask him to set up the GHD situps, which he waited till I got there so that we didn't use the equipment in case someone wanted it! (How thoughtful of him!) Anyway we did 3 rounds of 100m Waiter Walks 12kgs RT arm, 30 GHD situps, 100m Waiter Walks 12kgs LT arm, 30 back extensions! All before 9am imagine my buzz!!!
So todays entry was going to be about what makes me happy and generally a good mood thing! Then I get a message!! The boys are no longer allowed to train me as much as they do as someone at the gym has complained!! Let's get this right actually one of the Personal Trainers clients have complained! Why cause I actually want something for my monthly payment of £73 and not have to fork out another £40 per hour! Or because the boys actually want to do their job and help someone get fit instead of just standing around or having to clean the floor! I am feed up of gyms where people get away with doing exercise incorrectly and hurting themselves and no one giving a monkeys! The guys at my gym should be praised and rewarded for wanting to help people! So from Happy Bear, waving and smiling at everyone we now have this...
So not only do I pay my £73 a month for what exactly if I am not allowed a spotter, or someone to count my reps (you think I'm joking I honestly do lose count after about 5) ok they do more than that but that's cause they are nice guys!! I also wear my charity top in there with pride, so u would kinda realise I volunteer for a large British charity which is well known for its sporting events and challenges and therefore, if I was a gym I would want to be seen to be supporting someone who if they were fit enough would be doing them every month! (By the way this is one of the goals) You would think this is great PR for a place which a lot of people think is designed for stuck up "tennis mums!" - I have no issues with tennis mums but i am cross and ranting and you all know what I mean by the stereotype! But this is the gym which allows A-List celebs to use it for free when they are in town and I'm not allowed to complain about that! Well you can *!*# right off! Maybe i should of realised that it wasn't a place that really wanted people to get fit and healthy when this is what they have on sale as soon as you walk into the "Brasserie"...
The wonderful Mark and Stu have been pushing the whole #gymfree idea on twitter (have a look it is great) and I was fully behind it until I personally needed a constant kick up the butt and the guys at the gym gave me that! All I can think right now is Mark and Stu I should of listened to you guys!!
So what now?? Well I am off to the gym to see if anyone actually has the guts to say anything to me about it, and to ask for my £50 back which I should of got after my year was up, and basically to show how annoyed I am, and to ask the question all important question!
WHY SHOULD I GIVE YOU MY MONEY?
I was absolutely buzzing this morning as I woke up early I did a 2mile run (not much I know but the first time in ages I have done a road run) and then 350m swim (yes I got in the pool and I swam). Then off to the gym I went, I texted Perv to ask him to set up the GHD situps, which he waited till I got there so that we didn't use the equipment in case someone wanted it! (How thoughtful of him!) Anyway we did 3 rounds of 100m Waiter Walks 12kgs RT arm, 30 GHD situps, 100m Waiter Walks 12kgs LT arm, 30 back extensions! All before 9am imagine my buzz!!!
So todays entry was going to be about what makes me happy and generally a good mood thing! Then I get a message!! The boys are no longer allowed to train me as much as they do as someone at the gym has complained!! Let's get this right actually one of the Personal Trainers clients have complained! Why cause I actually want something for my monthly payment of £73 and not have to fork out another £40 per hour! Or because the boys actually want to do their job and help someone get fit instead of just standing around or having to clean the floor! I am feed up of gyms where people get away with doing exercise incorrectly and hurting themselves and no one giving a monkeys! The guys at my gym should be praised and rewarded for wanting to help people! So from Happy Bear, waving and smiling at everyone we now have this...
So not only do I pay my £73 a month for what exactly if I am not allowed a spotter, or someone to count my reps (you think I'm joking I honestly do lose count after about 5) ok they do more than that but that's cause they are nice guys!! I also wear my charity top in there with pride, so u would kinda realise I volunteer for a large British charity which is well known for its sporting events and challenges and therefore, if I was a gym I would want to be seen to be supporting someone who if they were fit enough would be doing them every month! (By the way this is one of the goals) You would think this is great PR for a place which a lot of people think is designed for stuck up "tennis mums!" - I have no issues with tennis mums but i am cross and ranting and you all know what I mean by the stereotype! But this is the gym which allows A-List celebs to use it for free when they are in town and I'm not allowed to complain about that! Well you can *!*# right off! Maybe i should of realised that it wasn't a place that really wanted people to get fit and healthy when this is what they have on sale as soon as you walk into the "Brasserie"...
The wonderful Mark and Stu have been pushing the whole #gymfree idea on twitter (have a look it is great) and I was fully behind it until I personally needed a constant kick up the butt and the guys at the gym gave me that! All I can think right now is Mark and Stu I should of listened to you guys!!
So what now?? Well I am off to the gym to see if anyone actually has the guts to say anything to me about it, and to ask for my £50 back which I should of got after my year was up, and basically to show how annoyed I am, and to ask the question all important question!
WHY SHOULD I GIVE YOU MY MONEY?
Monday, 25 July 2011
Everyday is a new day!
Ok ok so I failed on day one! My cardio was a 1.5 mile walk with the dog!! I know I suck, I know I promised I would do cardio everyday no excuses but I suck! So tomorrow must be a major improvement!
But guess what?!? I have one great bit of news! I am still on the booze wagon!! Second weekend completed and that even included dinner out, all day charity cricket match and a pub quiz!! BOOM!!!
The diet wagon, completely broke down on Saturday, with a trip to the cinema. So the "Big Gay Bear" took me out for dinner at Nandos! Badge and I even checked the menu online before hand so I knew what I wanted and everything! Guess which was mine and which was the BGBs?
By the way we went to see Bridesmaids, BGBs choice, I suggested that or Transformers! Anyway so we have Nandos and I am feeling proud of myself so feel I deserve a treat!! OH YES I MESSED UP!! Frozen yoghurt, salted popcorn, Maltersers, and a Chocolate cookie! Oh well I gave myself a cheat day! I should point out the BGB is not "gay" in the sense of his sexual preferences but as in he is normally always happy and to be honest there is never ever going to be anything sexual between us so he might as well prefer men to women.
Sunday was serious fruit day! Quick gym session in the morning then off to the charity pub cricket! Sun was shinning and I had great fun! The team I was supporting was led by Al my wonderful friend! It was Al that did the pub quiz that night and a raffle! I won Pois' - so excited!!
Today, well today was today and diet, and workout were never going to really happen all for one good reason! The boys came over! Puds' aka George is 18 months old and Arry/Gollum aka Harry is 9 weeks old, in all fairness I can't blame them for diet wagon still being wonky but they are the reason today was a right off! Me and my excuses!!Lets be honest was and is because I am lazy I have no one else to blame.
So yet again tomorrow is another start! Well I guess they say everyday is a new beginning for a reason! FINGERS CROSSED!! Now where did I leave my positive attitude????
But guess what?!? I have one great bit of news! I am still on the booze wagon!! Second weekend completed and that even included dinner out, all day charity cricket match and a pub quiz!! BOOM!!!
The diet wagon, completely broke down on Saturday, with a trip to the cinema. So the "Big Gay Bear" took me out for dinner at Nandos! Badge and I even checked the menu online before hand so I knew what I wanted and everything! Guess which was mine and which was the BGBs?
By the way we went to see Bridesmaids, BGBs choice, I suggested that or Transformers! Anyway so we have Nandos and I am feeling proud of myself so feel I deserve a treat!! OH YES I MESSED UP!! Frozen yoghurt, salted popcorn, Maltersers, and a Chocolate cookie! Oh well I gave myself a cheat day! I should point out the BGB is not "gay" in the sense of his sexual preferences but as in he is normally always happy and to be honest there is never ever going to be anything sexual between us so he might as well prefer men to women.
Sunday was serious fruit day! Quick gym session in the morning then off to the charity pub cricket! Sun was shinning and I had great fun! The team I was supporting was led by Al my wonderful friend! It was Al that did the pub quiz that night and a raffle! I won Pois' - so excited!!
Today, well today was today and diet, and workout were never going to really happen all for one good reason! The boys came over! Puds' aka George is 18 months old and Arry/Gollum aka Harry is 9 weeks old, in all fairness I can't blame them for diet wagon still being wonky but they are the reason today was a right off! Me and my excuses!!Lets be honest was and is because I am lazy I have no one else to blame.
So yet again tomorrow is another start! Well I guess they say everyday is a new beginning for a reason! FINGERS CROSSED!! Now where did I leave my positive attitude????
Saturday, 23 July 2011
Not as smart as the average bear!
Well my darlings you all know about yesterdays monumentum fail on my behalf! But, you also know that waking up this morning I had an epiphany! At 28 years old, on a Friday night if the worse thing I did was ate my own body weight in nuts and greek yoghurt oh well!! These things happen and tomorrow is another day! Trust me I could come up with a thousand worse things I could of done and how I could of spent my Friday night (a lot of them a lot more fun as well, and already experienced but hey thats a different entry!)
Anyway, this brilliant new attitude lasted through breakfast! My wonderful porridge, seeds and berries! It stayed through the double expresso and whilst watching the news (which was another wake up) it lasted the drive to the gym, it even lasted walking up the stairs at the gym! And then it happened!! I lost it, I committed the cardinal rule which the wonderful Mark and Stu had drummed into me in the last few months. I got on the scales!! I did my body fat %!
Oh common sense where were you???? I know better than to do something so silly! Especially on my own, after a stupid night (by the way I know one night wouldn't make much difference but in my mind it does!) At this point I feel it is only fair to myself to point out that I am not a stupid girl, I mean I am no Einstein and my spelling is some what orginal sometimes, but I am not thick!! However, there are times when the cast of TOWIE ( if you are reading this in a country where TOWIE has not made it to your lands, think Jersey Shore or some trash MTV reality show) have more common sense than me!
This was one of them! Out comes my phone! I send a couple of SMSs - first to my mum! (she will never understand my whole weight, body issues as she is my mother and obliged to say nice things about me always! (By the way I should take this moment to apolgise to my Mum - she never does anything wrong and does sooooo much right and I rarely appreciate it until afterwards!!) then comes the ones to the boys at the gym! Badge and Perv!! Well I knew Badge was on his way so only fair to give him a heads up on the crazy woman that was now in the gym!!
Oh and by crazy I mean CRAZY!!! I try and get on with my workout as best I can - but on comes the angry chick rock on my iPhone (by the way, still having issues with it so not that many songs, so imagine them on repeat) and I start singing along! Yes, I was singing loudly in the gym to angry prepubity rock chicks, and yes, I did get looks! No, this did not help my mood! Then bless him, Badge came over and tried to speak to me! Can you guess what happened? Swearing, grumpiness and then TEARS!!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!! I CRIED IN THE GYM!!!! OVER NUMBERS MADE UP OF LED LIGHTS! (seriously I dare anyone to tell me they are LED lights) I mean come on people, 28 years old, I have a degree in Mickey Mouse subjects, I am doing a masters in Bull Poo, my parents are sensible sane people, so why am I freaking over these stupid red lights!! Ok, so they didn't say the magic numbers I wanted them to, so they didn't spell out "ClaireBear you are wonderful just the way you are!" But what happens when they do show the magic numbers I have in my head? Will I be happy then? Will that be enough? And if it is then what??
Welcome into my life swimming, running and spinning! Time to mix up the training again! Weights one session, cardio the other! No getting distracted or thinking I can't run because of whatever great excuse I can come up with, or that I can't swim cause the water is cold (its not by the way)!
Oh and on some other notes of interest; Denver, was operated on yesterday and doing well. My wonderful Anna is getting married today so I would like to wish her and Kobus an amazing life together! (They are marrying in Cape Town, thats why I am not there by the way!) Rumour has it as well that tomorrow the sun might make an appearance over the UK, so this is a warning to all. If you see a blinding white light, don't look at it directly! That will be me attempting to catch a tan!!
x x How are you all spending the weekend?? Whatever you are doing, have fun and stay safe!! x x
Anyway, this brilliant new attitude lasted through breakfast! My wonderful porridge, seeds and berries! It stayed through the double expresso and whilst watching the news (which was another wake up) it lasted the drive to the gym, it even lasted walking up the stairs at the gym! And then it happened!! I lost it, I committed the cardinal rule which the wonderful Mark and Stu had drummed into me in the last few months. I got on the scales!! I did my body fat %!
Oh common sense where were you???? I know better than to do something so silly! Especially on my own, after a stupid night (by the way I know one night wouldn't make much difference but in my mind it does!) At this point I feel it is only fair to myself to point out that I am not a stupid girl, I mean I am no Einstein and my spelling is some what orginal sometimes, but I am not thick!! However, there are times when the cast of TOWIE ( if you are reading this in a country where TOWIE has not made it to your lands, think Jersey Shore or some trash MTV reality show) have more common sense than me!
This was one of them! Out comes my phone! I send a couple of SMSs - first to my mum! (she will never understand my whole weight, body issues as she is my mother and obliged to say nice things about me always! (By the way I should take this moment to apolgise to my Mum - she never does anything wrong and does sooooo much right and I rarely appreciate it until afterwards!!) then comes the ones to the boys at the gym! Badge and Perv!! Well I knew Badge was on his way so only fair to give him a heads up on the crazy woman that was now in the gym!!
Oh and by crazy I mean CRAZY!!! I try and get on with my workout as best I can - but on comes the angry chick rock on my iPhone (by the way, still having issues with it so not that many songs, so imagine them on repeat) and I start singing along! Yes, I was singing loudly in the gym to angry prepubity rock chicks, and yes, I did get looks! No, this did not help my mood! Then bless him, Badge came over and tried to speak to me! Can you guess what happened? Swearing, grumpiness and then TEARS!!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!! I CRIED IN THE GYM!!!! OVER NUMBERS MADE UP OF LED LIGHTS! (seriously I dare anyone to tell me they are LED lights) I mean come on people, 28 years old, I have a degree in Mickey Mouse subjects, I am doing a masters in Bull Poo, my parents are sensible sane people, so why am I freaking over these stupid red lights!! Ok, so they didn't say the magic numbers I wanted them to, so they didn't spell out "ClaireBear you are wonderful just the way you are!" But what happens when they do show the magic numbers I have in my head? Will I be happy then? Will that be enough? And if it is then what??
Ahhh, there you go! Sensible ClaireBear has returned showing she is smarter than the average bear! The numbers mean nothing! I have allowed myself today to think about this and make a new plan of action! The nuts are definitely gone!! I can not obviously be trusted with them! So Mummy, get ready to eat a lot of nuts until they are out of the house! (I have decided I can't give them to the dogs, like I did with the Special K and other naughty foods.)
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| For the record I DO NOT feed my dog chocolate!! |
Welcome into my life swimming, running and spinning! Time to mix up the training again! Weights one session, cardio the other! No getting distracted or thinking I can't run because of whatever great excuse I can come up with, or that I can't swim cause the water is cold (its not by the way)!
Oh and on some other notes of interest; Denver, was operated on yesterday and doing well. My wonderful Anna is getting married today so I would like to wish her and Kobus an amazing life together! (They are marrying in Cape Town, thats why I am not there by the way!) Rumour has it as well that tomorrow the sun might make an appearance over the UK, so this is a warning to all. If you see a blinding white light, don't look at it directly! That will be me attempting to catch a tan!!
x x How are you all spending the weekend?? Whatever you are doing, have fun and stay safe!! x x
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